Identity

In my youthful days

At the dawn of my learning

I played with my toys

And other fine things.

I revelled in sunlight,

Laughed at each morning,

Dreampt about flying

On Gossamire wings.

But even in these days

Of Peace and enjoyment

My view of the world

Was different than most.

For people around me

Ignored my fullfillment

And shortly my closet

Harboured a Ghost.

For,

The Part deep within me,

The Essence of Being,

Yearned to consume me.

Cried for release.

*

For I was a child

Unwanted, regretted

By parents who used me

To fullfill their own needs.

And I couldn’t measure,

My mind came unfretted,

At meaningless goals

that I couldn’t meet.

Although I was different

From them and my brothers,

They wanted concurrence

To a determined plan.

So I tried to achieve it

Without hurting others,

But failing, I felt like

A rejected man.

And

The Part deep within me,

The Essence of Being,

Yearned to consume me,

Cried for release.

*

My spirit’s imprisoned,

Hidden, unknowing,

For not every Jail

Needs a confining wall.

Twisting and turning

Inside, never showing,

The terror is building,

For forgiveness I call.

I crave to be normal,

Accepted by people,

As my own person,

Not somebody else.

I’ve made small achievements.

My mind isn’t feeble.

It’s different, dynamic.

Not empty brain cells.

Still

The Part deep within me,

The Essence of Being,

Yearns to consume me,

Cries for release.

*

So it doesn’t matter

That I’m not a genius

‘ Cause I’m a good person,

Not evil or bad.

I’ll work hard to help you,

Split profit between us.

So, when I relax

You’ve no right to be mad.

And I can play music,

Write volumes of stories,

Bowl a ball with a

Pretty good shove.

I am not seeking

Any heroic glories,

Just plain understanding,

Some Pride and some some Love.

Because

The Part deep within me,

The Essence of Being,

Yearns to consume me,

Cries for release.

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